epiphany.

i've been cranky a lot lately. i had been thinking this was just outside influences (bad weather, stress, pms.) but turns out. this is just my regular personality. awesome.

me: but its like i think everyone else in the world is out having fun
and doing fun things
and being cool
and i just feel fat and lame
and yes, i think hormones might be playing a role in this
and stress
Mandy: you are not fat
nor are you lame
me: so you can feel free to ignore my outburst
but i just feel less than awesome
Mandy: well you're more than awesome
so get over it
me: ANOTHER PANG
its funny
its like every time i pms
i am surprised that its happening
it shocks me
Mandy: hahahaha
me: EVERY MONTH
Mandy: (twice a month, i think)
;)
me: I KNOW
seriously
i just finished pmsing
over memorial day weekend
should i already be cranky like this?
maybe this isnt pms
MAYBE THIS IS JUST MY PERSONALITY
Mandy: yeah it's just cranky/stressed
HAHHAHA
no
me: THIS IS WHO I AM
I THOUGHT IT WAS PMS
BUT NO
THIS IS ME
AS AN ARTIST
THIS IS WHAT I BRING TO THE STAGE
Mandy: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me: binge eating and emotional outbursts
Mandy: ok, almost lost my coffee on that one
me: omg
i see it all clearly now
i thought i could blame this on hormones
but i have no one to blame but myself
ugh. maybe i need to watch more oprah and meditate
Mandy: you can blame pms once a month
and then you can blame stress for the other time
do yoga!
me: and how about the rest of the month?
i need more excuses