there's a disconnect

between what i know to be true. and what i feel to be true.

its not always easy to explain the difference. but many times i find myself saying, i know this to be true. but i just don't feel like it is. i don't know how to get the two to match up. i guess just as the heart wants what the heart wants. the heart believes what the heart believes.

i'm stuck in a mind/heart dualism. but what i so desperately need and want is a monism.